Darlin' don't you go and cut your hair...

Cutting my hair is something I've thought about extensively, exhaustingly, obsessively for months now. I just couldn't seem to let go though! It took me years to grow it out, first of all. But thanks to my affinity for weird hair, I had fried it to a crisp via lots of bleaching and every jewel toned haircolor I could think of. Secondly, my hair is such a huge part of my gender presentation, and to cut it felt like I was betraying my inherent femme-ness. Thirdly, round faced girls are supposed to have long, face-framing hair right? That was the one thing I just couldn't get past. My honest thought was, "But if I cut my hair, what's going to hide the width of my face?"

Here's the thing though: I'm fat. And the width of my face isn't changing any time soon. This epiphany got me thinking about how sometimes we treat being fat as a transient stage. Could this be a reason why more designers don't cater to plus size women, even though we are the fastest growing market in fashion? Speaking from personal experience, I NEVER LEARNED TO SPEND MONEY ON MYSELF! I never learned that it's okay to! I was programmed to think that I shouldn't invest in certain kinds of pieces because, hey, I won't be this size forever, right? I'm just going to buy cheap, ill-fitting crap because who knows what size I'll be tomorrow! Seriously! Take a few seconds to think about why you, especially if you are a plus size person, REALLY have so many 'fast fashion' items in your closet. Do you think your hot bod is worth investing in? Because trust me, it is!

I have a tiny budget myself, so I understand the financial aspect. But in my case, if I focus on developing my personal style and save up for key investment pieces here and there instead of trendy pieces on sale, I won't want to barf every time I open my closet. So, while I long ago accepted the fact that my body isn't just going to up and suddenly radically change one way or the other on me, I finally decided I was going to start putting my money where my mouth is. Starting by getting whatever the hell haircut I want, face shape be damned. (More on this in a future post.) I'm going to start buying less in favor of buying better. I'm going to allow myself to have quality items that will last me for years to come! No longer will I recoil at the sight of my closet!

I'm interested in hearing what you guys have to say about this. Have you let "fashion rules" get in the way of something you really wanted to do with your look?

In closing,

black friday purchases

THANK YOU for sticking with me while I was on my unplanned hiatus! I hadn't moved in three years, and I forgot just how hard it is, physically and mentally. It is a big HUGE adjustment for me in a lot of ways, and just didn't feel up to the task of wearing clothing and sharing said clothing with you guys for awhile. But I think now I am finally feeling good enough to share things with you again! So here's what I bought today.

M.A.C. Grey Friday Lipstick - $15

Basically, when I saw this on M.A.C.'s Facebook page last night, I pretty much lost my mind. I know grey lipstick has been done before but like, NOT CHARCOAL GREY OK. NOT LIKE THIS. I'm just going to cry every day til it gets here I guess?

ASOS Emerald Green Flatforms - $25

I have wanted these shoes for what seems like forever! But, I had a hard time justifying the $80 price tag. Finally they went on sale, and with today's coupon code (BLACKFRIDAYBONUS), I got them down to $25. That's a price I can like, not lose sleep over. Also, I just feel like it's really imperative that I own emerald green shoes. I don't know why. I'm just drawn to emerald green lately. I'm thinking about coloring my hair emerald green in the near future because weird hair is A Thing I Do when I'm in a transitional period.

Burger Records buttons/Cheap Time cassette - $7.33

Burger is my favorite record label, and therefore I feel obligated to participate every time they have a sale! I have amassed quite the cassette/button collection this way. If you hurry, there's still time left to get some rad stuff from their Black Friday sale!

Seinfeld Seasons 5-9 - $40

The only Black Friday thing I ever do in real life is go to Target in the evening and shop the leftovers. I was able to complete my Seinfeld collection for hella cheap! So now I'm sick on the couch being nursed back to health by my dogs and Jerry. I hope you guys have an awesome weekend! I will be back with a real outfit post on Monday! xo

I'm alive!

Since some of my readers have expressed concern, I thought I should let everyone know that I am, in fact, alive. Sort of! As you all know I've moved, and we will not have Internet until Saturday. The Internet is also out at my work, and it's awfully hard to blog from an iPhone. THANKS A LOT, SANDY. How am I supposed to live without my beloved Internet?

I did find a little time this past Sunday for my most favorite of jobs- vintage model for Re/Dress Online! The photo is via our favorite stylist Daniel Martinez of us chubby cherubs waiting to devour some delicious pho between outfits.

My house is a scary cardboard box ridden wasteland right now, who knew Alejandro and I had so much dumb junk? I hope to come back from this unplanned break better than ever and ready to blog my butt off.

Xoxo, gossip gurl